Today is a day filled with some uncertainties and sadness for me. It has been a while since I felt this way but it seems that the things in my life seem to be moving in slow motion. Like an instant replay in football things seem to move back and forth with a looming thought of what tomorrow will bring.
I was reading this morning in Matthew and one particular verse struck me as simple yet insightful. Matthew 14:23 (NCV) says, “After He (Jesus) had sent them away, he went by himself up into the hills to pray. It was late and Jesus was there alone.” As I embark on these new areas of my life that God has for me, I deal nearly every day with insecurities. I tend to run to “people” to help pacify these insecurities. I look for a kind word, a hug, a feeling of being needed or wanted. It is our own human desire to want to “feel good”. However at the end of the day, what does that leave me? Empty? Lacking? Did I gain any direction or confidence in my uncertainty? Maybe a little, I surround myself with people that I believe that can share good Godly advice and direction with me. But why get it from someone else when I can get it on my own.
When Jesus faced uncertainty what did he do? Did he run to his disciples and ask for a hug? Did he text his buddy and say, “will u plz pray 4 me?” LOL – no he didn’t. He got alone…and prayed…period. Jesus ran to the one person that he knew that could provide him comfort, direction and clarity. He went for a walk in the woods and prayed. I’m sure that there were some tears, I’m sure there were some “why: questions, I’m sure that there were even some moments of silence.
Kinda makes you think doesn’t it…
Now if you excuse me I need to take a walk….alone.
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